just as i thought, something was very wrong at work.
i got an email saying to fill out a self evaluation form, and i was going to have a meeting with my supervisor at a certain time. i thought for sure i'd be fired.
so i get this letter, yeah i can do the work, i've shown this and that, but i don't carry myself in a "professional manner" and when there's "downtime" it's my responsibility to seek guidance. okay, fine, i'll do that. but the letter also said even though it's admirable to "work things out on my own" since we work on things that are time sensitive, seek guidance so things can be done quickly. but what i don't understand is, that i've never missed a deadline on ANYTHING. I've only been shown how to do the cash bank rec, gas cards, vehicle reports once. i wrote everything down in my notebook. the next month, i completed them all on my own, with little guidance, all way before they were due. i even skipped lunch because the bank rec was really messed up and finished it. when i mentioned to my supervisor that "we'd finish that rec up tomorrow," he said jokingly, "no, you'll finish it tomorrow." Now, at my "evaluation" he points out that it's better to give him the work to finish on time.... but it makes no damn sense. I also pointed out that other people, females, that he's friends with, take personal calls, surf the internet all day, and all I want is to be treated "equally as my peers." I'm 2 months out of college and i'll do anything they want me to do, just show me. He always seems too busy to train me on new stuff, and when I asked him for some help about the things he showed me, he basically brushed me off so I would finish it and learn it on my own. Now it's changed?
Obviously someone "higher up" complained or caught wind of me not doing much, lit a fire under his ass, and so now i'm "singled out." I don't like it man. I drive 100 miles each day in a bad car to get to work, and I have not missed a day at all. I don't feel it's fair to not give someone work and then complain when they don't do anything.
Thanks to those that said ask for work, because sooner or later someone will find out. You guys really know what you're talking about, and your thoughts are very much appreciated. All I want to do is work and do a good job, and I hate feeling singled out and not treated equally when I just worked there less than 2 months. People are really nasty in the workforce.